Happy Days!

Monday was the very last day of the chastity game I've been playing
with Isis: for the past 57 days I've been allowed to play with myself,
but not to cum. It's been interesting ;)

It would really be quite an understatement to say I was eager, willing
and wanting when I got to do a session with Isis yesterday. I knew I was
in for an amazing experience, and wow, was I right! Isis put me into a
good, solid, deeeep trance and started working her magic. She got me so
excited, so unbelievable aroused and so desperately craving - all
amplified tenfold by being denied release for over 8 looong weeks!
It got so freakin intense, and then it all culminated into pure,
heavenly ecstasy :)

Release. Not once, but twice. I'm a lucky boy, indeed :)

Starting all over again?

56 days into my chastity, with only one day to go, Isis asked if I was
keen to try another experiment. Trusting Isis, and after having her assure
me I would still get to come the next day ;), I said yes.

What happened next showed me just how powerful hypnosis can be.
After having put me into a nice trance state, Isis convinced me that
we had just started our game, that I had cum the day before and was
ready for my first week of chastity. And I truly believed her!!
There was a disconnect between body and mind, though, as it still felt
like I hadn't cum in a while. However, there was no doubt in my mind,
this was the first day of our game!

After waking me up from trance, Isis was curious of how I felt about the
experience. I was surprised, and just a little bit spooked ;)
If Isis hadn't let me know, I would never have suspected anything and
would still be thinking it was Day 1 - now that's food for thought!

A few days left

It's been almost 8 weeks since my little chastity adventure started. The
details of the deal I made with Isis have been hypnotically hidden from
my conscious - this has been both great fun and a little bit frustrating!

A couple of days ago, something happened. I was being a good boy and
doing a little something to please Isis, when suddenly I could feel the
veil being lifted. Now I know the full deal, what I have to do to
fulfill my part of the bargain and when my sweet torment is gonna end :)

Good news is it's only a few days left! Bad news is... eh...  well, there
really isn't any bad news :D

Getting closer

It's been over six and a half weeks since my little game with Isis started,

and still no release. It's getting close, though. Or at least I think it is ;)

I am thinking about Isis a lot these days, even more than I usually do.
She has become the focus for all my sexual energy, and as my needs, wants
and desires just keep on growing stronger, so does my commitment to her.
I love how she cares for me, and I consider myself very lucky to be her
good boy. There is so much pleasure in pleasing Isis :)

Still no release

In my last blog entry, I wrote about the game I was playing with Isis.
The game hasn't ended, far from it. It's been 5 1/2 weeks now, and she
still hasn't allowed me to cum. Terrible, isn't it?

The game has changed somewhat, though. As usual, my conscious self
doesn't really get to know the exact details, but it seems clear that
it's really up to me when the game will end. I do have a feeling it's
gonna cost me, cost me a quite lot, actually. Blood, sweet and tears.
Well, maybe not that. But it's gonna translate into quite a bit of extra
work for my part.

I must add, though, that this isn't something that Isis has forced upon
me, far from it. I've walked into this MOST willingly, and while
pleasing Isis is its own reward, it gets even more amazing when pleasing
Isis is so tied with... uh, y'know... pleasing oneself;)

This game certainly has a rougher edge to it than what I am used too. I
am pretty sure that holds true for Isis as well. This experience has
been a fun (albeit a little frustrating ;)) way of exploring the
dynamics in the way in which we relate and play. I guess the key element
is that of trust: I trust that Isis will never let me do anything that
is bad for me, and Isis trusts me to tell her if things aren't good.

No release

I'm playing a game with Isis. Well, I guess it's more like an
experiment. The rules are quite simple: I get to play with myself as
much as I want; I just don't get to cum. This has been the state of
affairs for over 3 weeks now, and I don't know for how long it will
continue. Actually, this is not entirely true. It seems that a part of
me does know, the only thing is this part isn't accessible to me outside
of trance.

This isn't the first time Isis has encouraged me to go for a while
without any release. As a build-up to our meeting in Januray, the two
weeks prior was absolutely cum-free. But that was a lot different, as
travelling to the US and attending business seminars made the days just
fly by. Three regular weeks, however, seems a looot longer.

It's been good. But it's been hard. No pun intended. Honest. Some nights
I've been so aroused that it's taken quite some time to find the peace
and quiet necessary for falling asleep. Not that I'm getting sleep deprived,
it just take some time winding down, y'know ;) Cuz the arousal is deeper
and more intense than anything I've ever experienced. It's like all my
senses get slammed into hyperdrive, and I get bombarded with ecstatic
feelings of pleasure and desire. It feels good, it feels reeeal good,
but still, I'm left wanting, needing, craving.

Isis, being the sweet and caring person she is, has been offering to
make the experience easier for me. Some part of me would love to accept
her offer, but for some reason this just feels wrong. Something about no
pain, no gain or some other stupid macho nonsense.

Meeting Isis: The Adventures of tenker in America

After months of joyous anticipation, the day I would meet Isis finally
arrived. Flying into Baltimore, I'd been listening to Go Deeper and
Blissfully Blank, which made the flight a lot more relaxing and
pleasant than usual. Upon checking in to the hotel, I called Isis to
let her know I'd arrived. Time went by painstakingly slow while I was
waiting for Isis to arrive and the adventure to begin ;)

Finally I heard a knock on my door, and as I rushed to answer it I
suddenly felt a sudden jolt of nervousness. Amazingly, the nervousness
vanished before I even got to the door, knowing it was Isis just made
me feel so calm and relaxed, yet incredible excited.

I opened the door, and there she was: Isis, THE Enchantress, Queen of
Goddesses, Bearer of Joy and Pleasure. It really was one of those
Wow-moments :)

Isis and I had be talking a lot about the concept of walking around
while in trance, being able to be functioning out in public, while
still being in a deep hypnotic state. Thus, the plan was for Isis to
first take me as deep as needed so that we could go out for dinner, me
being in trance. Of course it didn't take her long to get me deeply
under, using one of the techniques I love the most: pulling me in and
out of trance, going a bit deeper for every iteration. And it worked
brilliantly, when Isis next woke me up, we had left the hotel and were
underway to the restaurant, a Dave & Busters. It was such an
incredible feeling completely trusting Isis, letting her guide me
safely wherever she wanted.

I have absolutely no recollection of arriving at the restaurant, but
when Isis woke me up I sat at the table with the menu in front of
me. Judging by her hearty laughter (which, believe it or not, was even
greater in person), I must have looked quite bewildered. When I
started looking through the menu, she was kind enough to inform me
that not only had I already looked at the menu, but also decided what
to have. It was a strange, yet pleasurable moment :)

For those not familiar with Dave & Busters, they're not only a
restaurant but also a games arcade. After finishing the meal, Isis and
I spent some time playing the arcade games. I don't remember much of
it, being in trance most of the time. What I do remember, though, is
how good it felt when Isis did better at the games than I did. I have
a suspicion she may have taken pity on me and use some triggers on me
as a delightful compensation :D

Going back to the hotel, Isis brought me out of trance yet again. I
could tell Isis enjoyed my reaction to my confusion when I found
myself walking around with a funny-looking Thor the Viking kid's
toy. It turns out I'd picked it out myself when redeeming all the
coupons we'd won playing. I guess it must have been the obvious choice
for a visiting Norwegian ;)

Back at the hotel, Isis took me out of trance and we talked about our
trip to the restaurant, and how great walking around in trance turned
out to be. Isis stayed a while longer, I don't remember much of it
besides going very, very deep. It must have been interesting though,
because even though I can't remember much, I get a warm, fuzzy feeling
and a big smile on my face when thinking about it :P

Interestingly, I don't even remember Isis leaving. She left me with a
surprise, though, such that when I finally awoke from trance I was
feeling like a very lucky boy ;) She also made sure I did get a good
night's sleep, and that I would wake up feeling absolute wonderful and
deliciously excited.

As it turns out, I had a lot of spare time before leaving Baltimore,
and my only regret was not being wise enough to do another session
before I left. But well, you can't win them all ;)

Meeting Isis in-person has been a dream of mine, and I'm so very happy
and grateful for being given the opportunity to make that dream
reality. She truly is an amazing person, intelligent, witty and sexy as
. I think Isis may be the most genuine good hearted person I
know, and I considered myself blessed to be her good boy :)